Why are you sad today? (our very own emo thread)

neverending · Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2012 10:50 pm Post subject:

i'm incredibly homesick.

i want it to be spring/summer again. i want to be back home, running through the bush, picking blueberries, jumpng over rivers...sucker fishing...laying on the beach, canoeing.....sigh.
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bergenergy · Posted: Thu Jan 26, 2012 11:00 pm Post subject:

neverending · Posted: Fri Jan 27, 2012 5:30 pm Post subject:

ZooeyLewis · Posted: Fri Jan 27, 2012 7:15 pm Post subject:

Last night Evan Dando tried to hand me a set list and some 80 year old asshole ripped it out of my hand. Sad

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Built To Post · Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 10:09 am Post subject:

An 80 year old will always win the battle for a setlist. They want it more. Could be their last ever one.
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ZooeyLewis · Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 3:41 pm Post subject:

mojo shivers · Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 7:32 am Post subject:

Oh, But Boy Do I Remember The Strain Of Her Refrain, And The Nights We Spent Together, And The Way She Called My Name

--"Dixie Chicken", Little Feat

Enough time has passed I believe for me to start this little project up again. I don't know if I truly needed the last two months to collect my thoughts or if it was more of a cooling off period. I know how I get. I know what my writing becomes when I write in the heat of the moment. No good comes of it. It all sounds like thunder--full of fury, but ultimately leaving nothing physical behind. It's not the first time I've lost somebody and I'm probably thinking it won't be the last.

It reminds me that when it comes right down to it there's only a handful of people I can count on. While I can't stop myself from feeling a little saddened by the loss, the loss isn't something that's going to define my life. You can't define your life by what's missing from it. That's like describing a song by what you're not hearing, a painting by what you're not seeing. I have too many people in my life to constantly tether it to the absence, noticeable or not, of an individual. If she comes back, she comes back. That's why I'm not taking down the header because, when it comes down to it, I'm not the one walking away from her. My door is always open, my phone's always on, and she knows where to find me.

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What I've been working on for the last few weeks is a little 'ole card game that was inspired by The Name of the Wind, the best book I've read in the last year. It's a trick-taking game called Corners that utilizes partnerships and powers, all aspects I really admire. It isn't my most creative endeavor--there's only so much you can do with a trick-taking game--but it's a solid game and I've been having fun playing it with local friends and friends from my boardgaming group. I don't know if it's going to go anywhere. I want it to, but I know the likelihood that it will be published is somewhat less than a dream right now.

One thing that it does have going for it is that I received encouraging words from the author, Patrick Rothfuss, when I mentioned to him that I had designed a card game based on the one mentioned in his book. He wrote back:

**happyfish** · Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 1:27 pm Post subject:

mojo: that is so rad the author emailed you back! My boyfriend loves that book, and he also loves designing games (in fact, he did so for a living for a while, but was laid off a couple years ago). I can't wait to tell my bf about what you're doing, he is going to think it is awesome.
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mojo shivers · Posted: Wed Feb 15, 2012 5:05 pm Post subject:

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**happyfish** · Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 3:49 pm Post subject:

My cat is sick. I took her to the vet twice and 600 bucks later learned she is constipated to the point that it was causing her to puke. She hasn't pood since Sunday, and I'm sick of thinking about nothing except cat poo.
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neverending · Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 2:28 am Post subject:

im going through a quarter life crisis. i say that because im only 23.

i'm miserable. and i don't know if its the city i moved to that's making me miserable or what. because i was miserable back home too. i love my job, most days. i think im in a rut. living in a basement is really dragging me down. but i cant afford to move or live anywhere else.

ive been looking at jobs back home, ive applied to a few. now i dont know if im just miserable because im so broke, so i dont know if me getting these jobs and moving back is really going to help. everytime i think about moving back i get really anxious, like its going to be a big mistake quiting the job i have now, but i also get excited.

work has slowed down, insane. I could have left at 8:30pm tonight if i wanted to. my shift ends at 11. I dragged it out until 10:30pm. So im worried im going to get laid off or fired. then forced to move back.

im also scared becuase the job i applied for, while it is a huge pay increase, and a stable, government job, my actual job duties would decrease. Sample prep. SO boring. i'd literally spend my days weighing samples and then adding acid. Whereas now I get to actual use chemical instruments and do chemical analysis..

ive also thought about going back to school too, for pastry. but thats an even bigger risk.

i just dont know what i want anymore. i need to go on a spirit quest and do peyote.
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mojo shivers · Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 5:40 am Post subject:

**happyfish** · Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 11:11 am Post subject:

Emily, I want to join you on your spirit quest with peyote.
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neverending · Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 1:45 pm Post subject:

bergenergy · Posted: Thu Feb 23, 2012 11:26 pm Post subject:

**happyfish** · Posted: Fri Feb 24, 2012 11:50 am Post subject:

So, my cat finally pooped, but then she threw up twice. So she has to go back to the vet again this morning. Third time this week, and they have not a bloody clue what's wrong. I'm going to a different vet this time, one that has better reviews, maybe they'll find something...this is frustrating. I love my cat, it makes me sad that she is sick, and not to mention the fact that this shit is EXPENSIVE.
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**Heather** · Posted: Fri Feb 24, 2012 1:10 pm Post subject:

neverending · Posted: Fri Feb 24, 2012 11:33 pm Post subject:

im so bummed.

I work in a lab, there are currently 5 lab techs and two shifts. Days (6-230) and afternoons (230-11). They want 2 day shifts, 2 afternoons, 1 mid (8-430)
Sean is straight "mid" shift, but he hasnt been working in the lab and is working on a "special project". fine by me, its dealing with solvents, I hate solvents.
Serena switched all of her afternoon shifts with Diana because she just had a baby.
So,
Serena = days
Diana = afternoons.

So that leaves me and Syd to be the only ones alternating. So me and her do 2 weeks days, 2 weeks afternoons.

As i mentioned in a previous post, I'm miserable and I want to take a pastry course. or maybe i didnt mention that, anyway, thats what i want to do. I found a cheap cake decorating class that is 4 weeks. THe class is from 630-830. I would have to leave early twice, at 6. I had asked my boss. Nope. ."thats what saturdays are for" he says...which, i understand, but im forced to work most saturdays.

So i asked Syd to switch. She said no, which is understandable, because I would too. Noone wants to work 6 weeks straight afternoons. Or, noone wants to work days monday, tuesday, afternoons wednesday, then days thursday friday. Working until 11pm one night, then at 6am the next day SUCKS. especially since lately afternoon shifts have been extending until 1-2am.

Stupid Serena.
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"oh no! jabba is going to choose jenny lewis for his wife. R2D2 will destroy him!"

-Emily Heart